LOUSY MOOD!...

06-07-2007,Friday,2.15pm.The chinese o'lvl oral exam started.The topic was eventually easy.*Yes,I meant it is!REAL EASY*The passage had no words that anyone from our class doesn't know how to pronounce*claps,cheers!*HOWEVER!I STILL MANAGED TO FLUNG THIS EASY ONE!
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I've to admit that I'm actually a lil' relax when I faced them.....Yet,I've no idea,since which minute which seconds onwards,I started to panick and eventually PRONOUNCING WRONGLY !It's worst that it's not just one or two words!It's a whole paragraph!That I'm stuttering with!*ARGH!*

Tried calming myself down and focused on the conversation,which I've my least confident in.*My brain is not turning NOR absorbing what a person said that fast Ok?!*It came out to be easier than what I expected,however it's the worst I've to face.(-___-).....

Okay,ended it in few mins time which means=DOOM!-___-.......And the worst to see that one of the examiners filling in 10 marks in both column.Which by means that either I just passed,or I failed.

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Kinda pathetic huh?*For me....It's not kinda...ITS REALLY PATHETIC!*
Friends cheering me,helping me,and lots of people supported me.Giving me hope.Yet,ending up with this kinda results,I felt so sad.Or to be exact,I felt so sorry.To let them down.(-_-)sigh!....

So the moment I stepped out of CCS room,the word and the feeling "DEPRESS" was flooding my mind...
I reached the stairs and took a few steps down,and then I started to break down.

Hey,it's few years ago since I've last shed tears.I only got panicked and then stress up and thats all.Never ever would I expect that I'll turned to a cry-baby because of it!!.....

*sigh*Guessed that it's not my day,even though they tried cheering me up with some hope.....Such as retaking the o's again the next year IF I ever flung badly.....Yet,I doesn't really feel like it!I've spent two years,if to be exact this is the third year.......I've spent that long that I managed to stand up again and walk till this far and now my hopes are all crashed?Well...I just doesn't like the feeling of it..........Re-taking the O's is the ONLY LAST resolution....That I'll ever referred to.....*I simply hope that it's not going to happen!*